When every word, every sentence from anyone has a double meaning, everything, even the small things stay present in my mind
The thing other people would quickly forget or throw to the wind remain at my side
Is this insanity?
Protection?
Paranoia?
Its possible yes
I already know that I'm all of those things
I don't think this makes me a bad person
Just careful
But I am also aware that it is a burden for the people I care about
. . .and I am sory for that
I'm sory for asking so many questions
I'm sory for being suspicious
I'm sory I fluxuate
But it's merely me putting unusual and most likely untrue puzzles together in my head
With a blank look on my face.
And If I ever get angry or down
It will never be at anyone else except for myself
just remember I still love you so much, no matter what.
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Ill always love you to.
ReplyDelete*raises hand* I'll always love you too connor! except not in the yucky smelly boy way... :P PS "big angries" are a part of your personality. so don't sweat it - we all get paranoid!
ReplyDeleteI'll always love my nii-sensei. You'll never be a burden to me, you're my only true friend. The only person I can count on to help me. The only person I can confidently tell my troubles to. I know how you feel, I do the exact same thing but I hide myself in false names and dispositions. If ever there was a person I could nominate as the best person ever, It would be my brother.
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