I stil don't like him
And I'm feeling worse about him
I think its the way they talk

I'd say its alot of small things combined but I feel really uneasy about something I have for a few days now and it sucks.

I'm really sick of waking up nie on everynight with a nightmare

It's a hard war to fight against your own subconsciousness

And all to often it will take a long time to piece together the fact that it was only that, a nightmare

They arent your usual demons, monster or ghost sort of dreams thats not a nightmare in my opinion and although the dream is frequent it never becomes less frightening

Because in all reality even though I know its impossible dying at the hands of a ghost, demon or monster would be perferred anyday over losing her.

Paranoia/Jelousy

~ He that is not jealous is not in love. ~
St. Augustine

~ Jealousy feeds upon suspicion, and it turns into fury or it ends as soon as we pass from suspicion to certainty ~
François de la Rochefoucauld

~ The paranoiac is the exact image of the ruler. The only difference is their position in the world. One might even think the paranoiac the more impressive of the two because he is sufficient unto himself and cannot be shaken by failure. ~
Elias Canetti

~ Paranoia is the delusion that your enemies are organized. ~
Arthur D. Hlavaty

Blogs

I've got a bad hobby of writing up a blog and then just not posting it on purpose.

I've also got a bad habit of being a complete fucking retard and telling people that I've got a bad hobby of writing up a blog and then just not posting it on purpose even though I know they'll want to read them and I'm just being a meanieface tease.

I've also got a bad habit of forgetting the awesome, unstoppable power kenzie has when it comes to blogger accounts. she could hold me hostage with it if she wanted to.

she won't though. she has better things to do with her time.

<3

Worried